days appear to pass by so quickly when i look at my last entry,
it feels like only yesterday that i wrote it,
but somehow or rather, time seem to be standing still.
it has always been that way when one look forward to a certain
end to a certain period of "sufferings"?

ORD LOH ... *sighz*

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an afterthought :
it rained on the 17 this month, and the day after it.
both days, somewhat signalled the begining of the
winding path ahead of me..
the rain has always held a special meaning for me
in term of events and life, it may seem supertitious
but i do believe in fate, only that's it's in a different
way that most people perceive it
wat does this blurred uncertain path mean for me?
these turmoil i'm experincing ...
do i have to overcome it? arghz, i do hate exerting
myself on something that was forced onto me in the
first place.

ahh, farked it ...
can't even think straight now, anyway

it began when it rained, how will it end then ?

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oh.. the weekend burns

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a thought:
another sunday ending another week
i continue to feel a void ahead of me,
it's a obstacle stopping my progression
somehow leading to regression.
the will i have;
i seem to have to have no control over it
probably just me lying to myself
all my dreams are waitin
and here i am still dazing ...

hopefully soon i'll get something done.
hah!
if fate or more appropriately put,
NS allows me to..
for my will is weak n i hate to rot ...

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Rantings :
this is just one of those things that are done on impulse,
even if you do realize it, you do not exert any control over it

the flaws of human character, i hav always pondered but never put
to much thought about this. do individuals realize their own shortcomings??
one cant possibly be so blind as not to examine themselves and then come
to be enlighten of their weaknesses and flaws.. or are they?

maybe there's another reason similar to mine: is that we tend to ignore our
flaws and attribute it to natural instint/character, and therefore should not be
altered.. is this perception subconscious? does it somehow overwrite our
conscious mind and made it ignorant of this self-observation?
i do not know for sure, but i do ignore what i deem to be my flaws n never
seek to correct them.. is my will too weak? or is it a unalterable course of
nature?

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