oh my hands,
they've tried to grasp
the stars alluring but alas,
alike dreams, it eschews
so fleeting to the touch.


random thoughts: the illusion of age

been writing alot about life it seem looking back at the few
entries i managed to churn out for the last few months. I
wonder whether it's coz im 21 this year, 21 being society's
deifinite age of adulthood. and for a blog which professed to
touch on poetry and philosophy, i have actually never really
written about philosophy.haha. well, a entry on philo would
take up too much space ya, and i like to keep my entries
short. ok, so maybe im kinda lazy too. and yes, the above
stanza aint really related to this entry.
in peace: of poetry and philosophy!

and now, a short philosophical piece. ha...
(it's brief, so don't expect too much)



the search for purpose.intimacy:god


what is your purpose?
that which is the soul
of one's life and fuels
the passions of thy heart.


firstly, on a more personal note: admittedly, this purpose
shit has been with me ever since i was 12. and i have to say,
it's quite shitty when you actually cared about this kind of
stuff at such a age. oh well, it's not as though we have
control over it ya. fate it seemed, just dealt me a cruel
hand. anyway, my perception of it had not changed much but
of coz, it's much more refined and mature now.


as old as mankind itself is its search for the purpose of
life. Why are we here? what were we brought into this world
to do? but man's inherent need to search for this universal
purpose is much more basic than that.

what is the purpose of studying? to pass the exams for some.
what is the pupose of participating in a cca? it's something
you like and enjoy. what is the purpose of doing something?
coz it needs to be done. there's a purpose in almost
everything we do. if you want to dwell deeper, there's also
fulfilling society's purpose of morality and expectations
which encompasses things as simple as throwing the rubbish
into the bin and getting a job. well to you, the purpose of
working might be just earning the cash to get through life.
but that can also be considered society's purpose(which is a
whole topic by itself actually).

what if you remove purpose? lets say you dont need to pass
your exams to advance, that you don't enjoy the cca, that
there's totally no consequence at all for not doing a
certain thing. yes, some of us are naturally drive to excel,
but aint that itself a purpose? a purpose or a will if you
like to excel. without purpose, what do we end up with? what
we will have is the slavery of nothingness. there's no point
in doing things anymore, no responsibilities, no
consequences. people have claimed that without religions or
moral condemnation, there will be total anarchy, but i've
digressed.

we have briefly touch upon how essential having a purpose is
and what can more important than the purpose of life? we
might not consciously feel the need for it, but sub-
consciously, we are all looking for it. but is there a
purpose to life in the first place? it would appear that
since there "is" a purpose to almost everything we do, that
we have unconsciously assume that there MUST be a purpose to
life too. Is this a error of perception on our part? or do we
just need a purpose to live? it's a discussion that is much
more than what i've just wrote, but i would leave the rest
for you to think about. what is your purpose?

ok i admit, im lazy. So i shall leave the "intimacy:god"
portion for another day. or maybe never. haha. oh well, if
anyone is interested, you know how to get hold of me.


how wretched it is, the slavery of nothingness.

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