random thoughts: As the leaves fall ...


When your heart allows a single speck of emotion to enter,
the whole world will come flooding in along with it.

My heart has been sealed shut for a long time. The apathy
of this world and its mundaneness have kept it numb. Even
now as i move to become a more extroverted person that i
ever have been, the apprehension sets in ever so often. The
doors to my heart pounding shut, trembling though in the
gale of the coldest winter nights. The mask that i adorn the
door with is now filled with cracks and there is a fear that
i will soon be exposed for the sociopath that im really am.

For those who know me as a friend, this will probably seem
incredulous. But for me, a someone who find his solace in
solitude, i just want to be society's normal people.


adore the silence
as the leaves tumble to the earth
im behind the windows
oh! wont you adore the silence too.

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