" flower in winter
soon to wither
a life in stone
to see it in bloom
whither do we bemoan?
sleep well april showers,
if ever in winter december
the snow's beauty veiled by cold.
do not mind the unmoving white
tip it over, let it fall once more "
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Saturday, March 27, 2004
just another in a sea of dreamers
dreamers are a dime too many but i guess the world makes us this way.
i may be depressed and full of regrets but there are too many self-pitying
dreamers out there. it's beginning to disgust me. i admit there is a thin line
between regret and self-pity but why waste life brooding over such things.
maybe it's easier on me since for myself, it has always been about the now.
it's inevitable that the ghost of regret will come back to haunt you now and
then. regression helps bring you back into perpective but to allow yourself to
be engulfed by it is deplorable. not much other thoughts at the moment.
im writing this one week from the date, but what the heck.
it's half a life time, but it feels like forever. one year and three months since
i boarded that bus at pasir ris interchange to ferry me to another life. i have
learn much and would like to think that i have somewhat matured at least
abit. but i seriously doubt so. damn, feel too empty and shagged to write
anything much now. it hasnt been a good week.
hush now as the stone skips
with my heart to deliberate.
the fairness of spite
who is to contemplate?
such deviation foreordained
the face of human heart.
a mockery of mirrors
a mockery myself.
what comfort to find in a bed of roses
suffice it is to lie in moss,
to rest on plebeian ground
to await the next summer breeze
a life in peace. it's all i wished.
fleeting glimpses of muse are all i received
but contentment is another thing
a proclamation: i dont care how high the garmen is
going to raise the price of fags. what happen to freedom of choice
anyway? aint alcohol worse? it gets you wasted for that few minutes
of high. fags just help makes you feel good and think better.
it's true, non believers! anyway... i have this attachment to my
70 cent lighters, it's weird but it's me. so can someone get me a zippo!!!
the small black one will do just fine. i juz hate throwing my lighters
away. Amen.
