was looking at this page, n i do realize that
this page aint pretty to look at ...
but what the heck, it's not as if i got that
much free time on my hand.

anyway, i started thinking.
yeash... thinking again, it only
happens once in awhile nowadays
but i still do some thinking.. hmm

been proscratinatin alot of goals that i wish
to achieve during this 2 n 1/2 yrs of obligatory
abit empty period of service to the nation..
hav made up my mind(again?!) to write them
down in a "to-accomplish" list,

& here is one of them :
--> to manage my finances <--

it doesn't seem that necessary, im not actually
short of cash or anything.. but, i had always
detest depending on others , even if they are my
parents, to provide for me.. even worse, support
my expenses when it comes to personal enjoyment,
fulfilment and stuff like that...

many pple takes this for granted and that feels that
it's a entitlement, or that they would probably
repay their parents later in life anyway..
but why do we have subvert ourselves to pre-stamped
moral values that have been imposed onto our society?
why do people claim others immoral just because
they do not subject themselves to the "standard moral
guidelines" drawn by society.. ?(abit out of pt, but nvm)

had wondered how the elites of society manage to spurge
so much cash on meaningless stuff like cheonging
and fancy clothes.. and this is refering to the sons &
daughters which i seriously doubt had put in any effort
in earnin the money they spend.. i mean, the money aint
theirs!?? okay, i might sound like a overly jealous deprived
person, but thats what u think... and i don't give a damn.

not going to whine anymore for now.. gotta go out and spend
cash on some meaningless pleasures.
...such a paradox, aint it...

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